Cancer

This is not a topic I ever planned to blog about. Sometimes things happen that we do not plan for. Late last year my wife was diagnosed with breast cancer. Getting that phone call was not fun. To be honest I just didn’t expect it. Yes, they had called Rita back for further tests because something unexpected was spotted, but I just assumed the medical staff was being extra careful. They were being extra careful. I just didn’t expect the call. No, I expected a call, I just thought the news would be different. The news wasn’t different. There is no way to prepare yourself to hear that your wife has cancer. It simply sucks.

In the weeks since we have heard a whole lot of positive news. It was caught early. The mass is small. There is no reason to believe that she won’t be cancer free by summer. But this isn’t what I hear. All I know is that my wife has cancer. And cancer is not a good thing.

There have also been some amazing points of light. Hearing the stories of cancer survivors has been a source of hope. Our church family that has surrounded us with prayer and love. My coworkers have consistently asked how we are doing while giving me space to be less than my best. Family members have reached out in all kinds of unique ways. Both of our boys have become “pastoral.” Our neighbors have cared for us in ways that say we are more than people who live next door to each other.

In a strange way my faith is growing and changing. I am furious with God for allowing this to happen. At the same time God is there in ways I have never experienced before. I am not a fan of the various ways that Romans 8:28 is sometimes used and abused, but I find myself clinging to these words: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”

At December’s DOOR National board meeting I quoted Tim McGraw’s song:

Let’s take a moment and celebrate our age

The ending of an era and the turning of a page

Now it’s time to focus on were we go from here

Lord have mercy on our next 30 years

My prayer is simple; I want another 30 years with my wife.

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7 responses to “Cancer

  1. Its better when they do it by phone call, than when they do it in person to be honest.

  2. i know that sounds weird, but somehow its less emotionally draining

  3. Russ K

    Glenn,

    Thank you for sharing this deeply personal message. I will be praying for you and your wife. I am learning that being angry with God is frustrating. But somehow in that anger, something beautiful begins to form. I think being angry is the journey! Again, thanks for sharing.

    Prayers for you and your family,

    Russ

  4. Steve Johnsen

    Glenn, Hope things go well on Friday. To me, the matter of being angry with God is entirely normal. However, it is important to me to know that the God of love is to be found in the love you and Rita feel for each other, and not in some cells that are doing things that cause cancer. Peace, and best wishes. Steve

  5. Steve Johnsen

    Glenn, Hope things go well on Friday. To me, the matter of being angry with God is entirely normal. However, it is important to me to know that the God of love is to be found in the love you and Rita feel for each other, and not in
    some cells that are doing things that cause cancer. Peace, and best wishes. Steve

  6. Brenda

    I’ve known you for a lot of years. This is the first time you’ve made me cry. More than 30 more years, please Jesus.

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